i think i should of....

....consumed a little less red bull in the past 36 hours!!!!

but its got me a thinking!!! and we all know what happens when i start a thinking!!!!

Whilst i try and recover myself from being a caffeine addict i shall attempt to put down some meaningful words down.

I have been greatly encouraged recently, i put this down to being back at the church i call home, i put it down to anonymous prayers that have been prayed for me, i put it down to Jesus just wanting to do business with me again, i put this down to being back in contact with those that gave me such encouragement before even though they are not necessarily aware of the encouragement they give!!!

Firstly i have a verse

Give your worries to the Lord

and he will take care of you

He will not permit the godly

to slip and fall

This verse can be found in the book of Psalms, Psalm 55 v 22 to be exact.

I often claim this verse as my own, it was the first time that i think i ever heard God speak to me directly. I was a young boy probably about 15 and it must of been very early in my walk with Jesus after moving on from the child like faith. I was down and in need of encouragement so i picked up my bible and was like "Lord, show me something" i did the whole close my eyes, open random page and point trick, and my finger landed beside this verse. The verse i have quoted above is not how i found it having grown up and used different bibles since then, but the last part of the verse as i remember it from my youth bible is "He will never let good people down"

He will never let good people down

I am not known for my worrying, outwardly anyway, many of you will know that i am as laid back as they come. But, (and i know this is bad grammar by starting with but), i do have many worries, like for instance, right now im worried about my future, i like most men my age, want to get married and be an awesome dad and have a semi decent car!!! And me being me, i am really good at not taking my own advice...

...All through my life i have passed this verse on to people and told people not worry and to give it to God, but i rarely take my own advice! I'm too happy to dispense it! My mother talks a lot of sense and although i must drive her up the bend with my blasé lifestyle, i do heed her words and i thank her for them. I ought not to worry about the car, the wife and the family. I'm trying to live in the here and now...

...One of my favourite Rob Bell NOOMA DVDs is Number 17 in the series, it's called Today. So often my thoughts wander to the past and how things were and to the future and how things are going to be!! Whilst i would say i am now more comfortable with the things in my past, the ghosts in the closet are all but exorcised...i was though, in despair over the past...over things said...not said...things i'd done...things that had been done to me. I learnt to deal with it, God broke me and he dealt with me...

Rob puts it quite well

"There's a certain kind of despair that sets in

when we believe things were better back then.

When we're stuck back there.

When we're not fully present.

When we're still holding on to how things were,

our arms aren't free to embrace today"

Our arms aren't free to embrace today

And so i am trying to embrace each day...and i finish with a verse from James

You don't even know what tomorrow will bring-what your life will be

James 4:14

Goodnight and God Bless