A lot has happened in the past week

Well! it is now april! month four of the year 09 has begun and am i any happier? The answer....a little!  I still know not what i want to be, nor do i have a plan to rectify this situation! I am living for today and today only! I cannot embrace what happens today if i run around with my arms stretched out for tomorrow! 

I said above that i am happier! Yes, i am.  I take joy in my friends joy and seeing them happy makes me happy.  I have had several good conversations with people this week and although situations may not be how i want them to be, i rejoice in the fact that the other parties are happy! It is my hope and prayer that things turn out well for those aforementioned (aforementioned, thats a big word, i like it) parties.

I heard before that all good things come to those who wait...i guess i just have to keep waiting... and to just be this "amazing" guy that people label me with, i don't feel amazing, nor do i ever think i will.  I've always camped in the nice guys get nothing campsite, and i often wonder whats the point in being nice and kind and thoughtful and all of the other eligible bachelor traits that i have spent years honing if it gets you nothing in the end?

Truth is, i'll never understand! It's in God's time and not Niall's time!