As i cant seem to sleep or study!!!

I have decided to update!  currently waiting for a come and fetch me from the library text from a housemate! so hopefully they don't decide to study all night! 

anyways! since last post i updated you on my aims for the year and my plans for the end of the month!  Rome, this time two weeks if i can find a suitable internet connection i will update on what the first day involved!

studying for a degree that you really do not want is one of the hardest things one can come across in life, since about a year and a half into my degree, around about when my grandad passed away i realised that i really didnt want to do biochemistry.  Biochemistry itself is a very interesting field of science to be in and maybe if i was at a different University where the teaching staff cared and the course was actually Biochemistry then i'd like it a little more! but that is a rant for another day!

i have found it extremely hard motivating myself to study things such as microbial metabolism, genetic manipulation to name but a few.  the truth is currently i care more in life about many other things than my university degree, which is disturbing to me as a long time ago my mother made a promise to me that if i got to Uni and passed she would take me to New York, so currently there is alot on the table!

New York or no New York! i am well aware that currently i am rambling and not making much sense! this is what the pointless revision of how much the biodiesel industry is currently worth! 

i have alot on my mind currently and not a lot of it is biochem related! i have friends who i'm not sure how to reach out to and the usual third year feeling of oh my gosh what am i going to do in four months time!!!!

it is too late to apply for a PGCE so i guess my option is to work for the year! but that would mean probably working in O2 full time, and this would not be beneficial to my lifespan, or waist span!!!!  i have toyed with the idea of getting a 6month/1year visa to go and live/work/travel around New Zealand.  

there are many options for this 22 year old boy who doesn't to grow up to choose! when all he really wants to do is, be there for his friends and family!

i started doing quiet times again the past few days, God still blows my mind, how he can love a sinner like me and still find a use for me.  i praise him for the friends he has sent to watch over me in these tough times, you guys know who you are if you are reading.  i miss my friends from church back home, i wonder if they read this, Craigmore is still very much in my thoughts and prayers.

Ive rambled enough! back to biofuels!!!